Thursday, May 1, 2008

Dada's Home

Nina says, KAYA!

Being married to someone who works in the airline industry, I can tell you that it's not always about the nice benefits like free flights. It's also about dealing with being alone with a four-year-old all day, doing housework, and trying to come to terms with choosing to be a stay-at-home mom rather than in the working world. There are days I wonder what would life be like if I hadn't married at 24, what if I hadn't had a kid right away. But then, I know AR is the only man for me and I know that we took this journey of faith, hope and love together and it couldn't have been any other way.

I derive strength from the idea of a butterfly, not just as a symbol of moments, transition and change, but as personal symbol that I too will emerge to become a better person and mom because of this. I can say I would never have grown so much as a person if not because of my experiences. There's a saying that goes, "Sometimes we need to give up who we are in order to become who we can be."

Journaling reads:
I wanted to capture what it's like when Dada's home. A new SONY digital camera, scrapbooking goodies and new Cars toys are new additions to the house. I realize I can never capture what it really feels like - the gamut of emotions runs from anger, loneliness, frustration, anxiety and angst. This li'l fellow has to deal with his mom's crazy emotions and runs excitedly to his dad for some sanity, as if seeking salvation. I'll never get used to AR traveling so much because of his job. I sometimes wonder if I'd have gotten married at 24 knowing what sacrifices I'd have to make as a wife and mother. But I do know I wouldn't have married anyone else. I'm lucky, I know. But, honestly, I'd be a li'l bit happier if packed suitcases weren't as much a part of our life. But, well, faith is the only thing that makes me believe everything will be okay in the end.

Materials used:
Cardstock - Bazzill, DCWV; patterned paper - Love, Elsie, All About Scrapbooking; die-cuts - Foof-a-La, 3 Bugs in a Rug; stickers - Love, Elsie, All About Scrapbooking; butterfly metal charm - All About Scrapbooking; stamps - Hero Arts, All About Scrapbooking; pen; ink.

About ME:
I'm a 29-year-old stay-at-home mom to 4-year-old Matt.

You can find me at my blog over at Creating in Solitude.


cabbie lopez said...

love your layout and your pic!!!! and of course your obstacle in life right now i understand the burden of it. but you can surpass it i know you are a strong person.. really very strong! take care.

Candy said...

Great LO, Nina! This is an equally challenging LO project as the last! Will see if I can muster enough courage and creativity to bring it all out. Hehehe.

pigmentations said...

ooooh. this IS deep. so help me! :(

Donna Espiritu said...

wow nina so love your lo, iba tlaga pag writer! :)

Lee i. said...

nina, that's a very cool photo. pero nawindang ako sa challenge na ito. hmmm...thanks but no thanks? hehehe kidding aside, thank you for sharing your deepest thoughts with us. we all go through challenges in life, but like you said, we will prevail the stronger.

Christine said...

Nina, thank you for sharing what you are going through. That is one awesomel LO - you couldn't have done it any better!

CraftFairy said...

Nina, thanks for the challenge. I couldn't make up my mind what challenge to write about [dami kasi, heheh] I was feeling down in the dumps when I made mine.

I could relate to your husband's traveling and being away most of the time. I had my share, but it was me who was away all the time and I realized how much I've missed of my DD's early school years esp. when she asked when will I be a chaperone mommy [when they have field trips].

Au Lim said...

hi Nina!...wanna thank you so much for this challenge. not only for saving my a** but also for making me sit down and do it because the resulting LO and pact with myself only makes my world brighter. xoxoxo :-D